My back is in so much pain. I don't know what i actually did to it. I was at the gym yesterday and I get a 25 lb. weight and put it in one hand and i stand up and do side crunches. I was holding the weight in my left hand and doing side crunches and just completely torn my back out. I either pinched a nerve or extremely pulled a muscle on my right side. Lower to mid back. I mean even when i walk or put pressure/lift pressure off my left foot it hurts my RIGHT side. I put heat on it yesterday and some Biofreeze at my boyfriends and he rubbed it for a while. Thank god i was finished working out because i literally set the weight down and had to leave the gym. It's very sore. I thought sleeping on it would help too, and i woke up this morning just as sore. It's not a sore muscle like when you work out, it's a pulled muscle and it hurts very bad. I'm a grandma =[

Anyway, here i am at work and i have my heating pad on but it's not helping. It's so busy right now and i wish we had more girls on incoming calls. Grrrrr.

I've been doing extremely well with my fitness. This past week i went to the gym 6/7 days. Nice, right? I was there at least for an hour each time and did at least 45 minutes of cardio a day. At least 2 days of weights too. I don't know i just felt so good working out each day and woke up wanting to work out.  I started this week out good too and went to the gym yesterday on memorial day, i was suprised the gym was open!
My eating has been healthy too. I drank on Saturday night but that's the only thing that i did that was bad. ( i drank vodka and diet pop, baddd but could be worse) I mostly have been eating A LOT of fruits, chicken, tuna and more tuna tuna tuna. haha. I've had some veggies too of course. I've had a lot of green split beans and broccili. yum.
I need to go grocery shopping so bad but i don't know what im going to get the time to do that. I get my check today and i can't cash it till tomorrow because my bank closes while im still at work today. And again i work from 9-530 then class tomorrow 6-9. BOOO. i really need to go grocery shopping too. I haven't gone in like 3 weeks or so. I'm hardly surviving. I steal all my boyfriends moms food, ha.

Today i'm at work, then i think i'm gonna go easy and take a day off so i can rest my back a little more. I tried to run in place and see how my back would respond and it didn't hurt too bad but i don't want to get to the gym and be hurting and have to turn around and go home. So since i've been doing good with the gym im gonna take today off. As well as tomorrow (because of work/class) But i'll jump back in on thursday after work and friday. I just need to make sure i eat super healthy today and tomorrow, right? ;-]
This morning i've had fruit fruit fruit. My usual coffee when i get here. Then around 1030, i had a banana, some blueberries and about half an apple, it wasn't very good.  I'm in the mood for yogurt today so i think i'll go get some on my lunch break. I of course have to go get my lunch on break today. I'm not really sure what i feel like besides the yogurt but we'll see when i get there. =] ACTUALLY i think ill go Whole Foods and make myself their yummy salads with tofu/veggies/chickpeas. YUM. I'll grab a yogurt and probably a powerbar of some sort for a snack later before i go home for the day. Whole Foods is expensive though so that always causes me to go there not as often as say Kroger.

I'm not sure how much i weigh. I honestly have not stepped on a scale in months and months. I feel like i'm either getting more toned or losing a bit of weight or both. I've been making sure to do more ab work at the gym everyday since i know i lack on that. I would like to lost about 5 more pounds. I don't know if my body is capable, i have a lot of muscle on me so i think i look a little thicker than i am. I'm guessing i way about 128-130 right now. I'm fine with it, i'm fit and healthy and i do that best i can. But of course i'd like to way closer to 120 for confidence in a bathing suit. ;-]
Which reminds me, i never tan nor go swimming in the summer. BOOO. This summer i need to get out there and do it. Work makes it so hard, as well as school.
Camping trip is on the 5th-7th so i'm super excited for that. Cedar point --yayyyy. My friends are so great and we have such a good time when we go. So maybe ill catch a tan there ::fingers crossed::

My posts are always so long but i have much to talk about. Especially when i'm at work and trying to kill time.
i'm off though, i hope my back feels better!

<333 Heidi

Hi anyone who reads this.

I just got to work and cleaned up my room here. I'm a team leader/receptionist at a marketing company and i have about 10 girls and 1 boy in this room with me and it gets a mess. Especially with all these computers and cords. So i tried to clean it up a bit and i found a mirror marker and tried to open it the way i thought it was supposed to and shit i popped the whole top off and ink went everywhere. So not only is my room not clean anymore, it has dark purple ink on the carpet, desk and on my somewhat new shoes. blah.

So here i am at work and it's somewhat busy and i still insist on writing in this. =P
I just talked to the NICEST person who has ever cancelled an interview just because they weren't interested anymore. I like that.

yum i love my morning coffee, it honestly saves my mornings. Besides purple paint everywhere. These shoes better not be ruined, grrrr! ::shakes fist::

Last night I took my laptop to art lecture class with me after work and i was so excited to bring it and ACT like i'm taking notes but i'm actually on the internet, playing games, myspacing/facebooking, whatever. I get there all pumped with my bute light pink laptop and the wireless isn't working. I mean it is, but it kept asking for a damn password. So from 6-730 i sit there and try everythign i can think of. I connect/disconnect at least 20 times and i'm so pissed, he-he (it's funny NOW) and i'm texting people to help me and no one knows anything. I go out in the hall on breaks and not one person has a laptop today on all days. The librarys closed, no ones in the office, nothing. So as i leave at 8pm (i left early because of american idol finale, duhh) i see two dudes with their laptops. I run over and get the username and password. So great, AFTER i leave class, bored out of my mind, i got the name/password. It was my student number and my birthday, how simple right?
----ok enough complaining but it consumed so much of my time (and my computer battery)

DAVID COOK WON AMERICAN IDOL LAST NIGHT and i'm so happy! He is sexy as fuck and i've wanted him since day one (besides michael johns cause he was hot and australian) David was so cute and crying when he won. What a badass right? ;-] I will purchase his c.d. cause he's sweet. Archuletta is like 15 and he has a silly ass laugh and hes nervous 24/7, he has no style of singing either.

So this week has been great for me diet wise/fitness wise. I've ate very healthy all week (a few bad things last night) Went to the gym monday and tuesday for at least an hour, yesterday i couldnt i was so busy ( work 9-530, class 6-9) Today i'm going to the gym again after i leave work around 545. I am so sore right now and i absolutely love it. Once I start my membership again at the rec i feel like i get such a better work out then just running outside, work out dvds or sneaking into my old high school fitness room ;-]. Not so much my arms, i use 10 pound dumbbells and i do at least 15 minutes and i rarely get sore. I may have to raise the weight again, but i don't want to get huge arms ya know? grrr.
Inside my thighs are so sore from doing some many lunges and thigh master machine deal. My calves hurt from the elliptical cause i go for 45 minutes on my damn tip toes, it's annoying. And my abs are have been really sore from the yoga ball crunches. Even doing 100 of them a day has killed my abs. I am not very disciplined on my abs which is no good because i complain about that the most. But i counteract that with a lot of cardio/running which helps overall tightening so blah.

Today i think i am going to change it up (from elliptical/tredmill/track running) and do the bike/track/stairmaster. Then i have to do my arms again today (twice a week).

Diets been good. Last night was my only slip-up =/ I ate great breakfast, lunch (at work) then i went to class and had a Luna bar and dried fruit (so good) but when i got home around 8pm, i ate a couple servings of Whole Wheat Wheat Thins (those are addicting) and i had a plain Jelly sandwiche (still no PB, it was hard). I know that doesn't seem SO bad but carbs easily creep up on me and really effect my body. So BOOOO for whole wheat anything, cause i love it. haha. I could have a worse downfall, right?

So this morning all i've had is coffee, i get up at 730 and get at work at 9am. I usually eat my breakfast around 1030. I brought an apple and cream of wheat (oatmeal) today. I also brought a cottage cheese cup for a snack. I have no food at home so i have to go buy somethign for lunch at target on my break. I wish I had more fruit for breakfast but it's so expensive and i'm so poor, boo hoo.

No LOST tonight! grrrr, they are making us wait 2 weeks for the 2 hour season finale. I can't wait though, i just absoutely love that show =D

Have a good day all, be healthy and ACTIVE!

Oh man, it's back to school and work. And i feel like i just got done with last week. Blahhh. I wish it was still the weekend.
This weekend was a lot of fun! Hungout with my best friends, boyfriend, bought a badass laptop and bought that rec membership. I know i know, i sound really rich but i'm not. I spent my grocery money on the rec membership and i spent left over school financial aid on the laptop that i've been wanting for years. So i kinda feel badass and secretly rich but i'm not at all and now i will starve this week with no groceries and hardly any money. I'll manage.

Friday I went and bought my gym membership after work and worked out for about an hour and 15 minutes or hour and 1/2. I did the elliptical for 45 minutes, then did some free weights for about 15-20 and back on the tredmill for another 10. So that was good. Afterwards I just hungout with my two really good friends ashley and jessica. Rented movies and stayed up till like 330-4 talking and be dilerious. =P I ate really well for the most part except for some pretzels and a tootsie roll but i worked out so i allowed it. no big deal.

Saturday I went and saw Nick Swardson, the comedian/actor with my boyfriend, and friends Brandon and Jackie at the State Theatre downtown. It was SO funny and I absolutely love going to see comedians. He was extremely funny. The opener guy was also funny, hes from punk'd or something. Either way, it was a good time. After we left we went out to a party with other people. I drank some liqour but didn't eat shit food, haha. Liqour will do that to you. Saturday night was mucho fun!

Sunday I went up to the gym and it was CLOSED! WHATTTT. I was really upset but i started my period so i had really bad cramps and i just wanted to use the damn elliptical because running honestly kills me when i have cramps. So no gym that day, =[ Then I went to costco to see what laptops they had because i saw their ads on the computer and looked nice and CHEAP. I got there and there was literally 4 laptops and no media personel around so i said no thanks. I went to Best Buy and found a Sony, light pink 14.1 inch laptop for 799.00$ and it's got a camera and all the memory, dvd player, microsoft works stuff that I need. After I got all anti virus, programs, wireless router and wireless mouse it came to like 1,200. So not too bad but i'm in love with it. Unfortunately they forgot to give me the battery pack in the box that allows you to walk around and have it NOT plugged in to the wall, so i have to go get that today after work.

And yesterday, I went to the gym in the morning for about 1 hour and 15 minutes then  i went and picked up the laptop after all the programs were put on it. Went and sat with my good/old friend Pete as he ate at a mexican restuarant (i wasn't hungry but he was) and then i set up the computer, went to class 6-9 then rushed over to watch my boyfriend/friends in their softball games. (i'm the score keeper, IMPORTANT jon ;-] )
I ate really well yesterday, mostly fruit all day long because i was mega busy, later i had a skinny white eggs omlette from Charleys Deli and a strawberry banana smoothie and a granola bar. I think i ate something else but i can't think. Fruit is the best food in the entire world, i can't stop eating it and it's so expensive, grrrrr.

Today: i'm at work right now, started at 9am. I will be here till 545pm, which right now seems like FOREVER. But it'll go by hopefully pretty quick. Right after work i'm heading up to the gym again. And up to best buy to get that battery and then with my boyfriend for American Idol, gooo david cook! I have to go buy my lunch today, like i said i have no groceries so all i have is a banana and an apple for breakfast. So i'm not sure what i'll get. Probably some grilled chicken and a whole wheat wrap, or maybe a lean cuisine, or yogurt or something. I really am not in the mood for anything at this time but i'll figure it out.

I work all week long again, which is money so i can't complain and it keeps me busy.
I plan on going to the gym tonight, tomorrow night, then i work 9-530 and class 6-9 on wednesday so thats a no go, gym on thursday, gym on friday and then either saturday or sunday.
I absolutely love having the rec center membership, i use it so much. It's 14 dollars for one use, for the fitness center, pool, free gyms, hockey, etc. So i definitely use my membership to the fullest!

well i need to get back to work now, i'll update tomorrow most likely.
I feel healthy and good right now and i've been eaintg A LOT of fruits so that's wonderful and i have no had peanut butter since may 5th ( maybe before). PB is so damn good but i was eating entirely too much. =P I haven't even had any cravings for it, so yay!

everyone stay healthy and active! =D and have a good day
mmm i just got my morning coffee, yummyyyyy

Heidi

Hello, Hello.

I'm sitting here at work and decided that this is a great idea. I used to have a livejournal back when it was cool but i slowly just turned that into a quiz/survey journal that no one even read, ha. No one even uses journals anymore which is why i started this journal in the first place. So i can look back and read about my thoughts, troubles, happiness, etc. (Plus, it gives me something to while i'm here at work and "not-working" haha)

I know and as all my friends/family know, i am extremely into my health/diet and fitness. I thrive on it, i live for it. I honestly can't get enough. Although, if i sometimes do not exercise as much as i should've that week or day my mood completely changes. I'm grumpy, i'm lazy and i'm mad at myself. I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing, i think it's wonderful that i take pride in my health and apperance. I do the best that i can.
I can get discouraged every so often though. And fall off the wagon. I feel as though I work SO hard and eat almost all healthy and i don't get the exact results I want. I mean, i shouldn't complain. I'm not overweight, i'm a healthy weight that i should be. I could stand to lose maybe 10 pounds or 15 though. I'm very picky and i'd love to be 115 again. I honestly just don't think it's in the cards for me. I don't look what i weight, which is strange because i'm only 5'3" and weight is easily noticed on my small frame. BUT i have a lot of muscle, i feel bulky sometimes. I know muscle weighs more than fat, blah blah blah but shit i just feel like there is no way i can get down to 115 without starving (which i refuse to do, AGAIN- long story, 11th grade and thought anorexia was in)

Anyhow,
I eat a very good diet, i'm extremely picky with the food choices I eat. And people mostly roll their eyes at my health motives. I take a lot of pride in my health outlook and i get upset people feel the need to pick on my habits.

AS OF NOW:

DIET:
I usually eat only fruit until noon (breakfast) occasionally I will have it with yogurt or i will eat oatmeal. Lunch is normally a coffee, some sort of protein. (tuna, chicken) a salad with veggies, or sometimes a LUNA bar (nutrition bar that i adore) Dinner is normally some kind of whole weat wrap with lean turkey/chicken or veggies. Sometimes for snacks i'll have pretzels, low-fat popcorn, fiberone bars, more fruit, nuts.
The only obsession i have is peanut butter. Ugh, it's bad news. Although peanut butter has GOOD fat in it and is a great protein. It has intense calorie amounts and still have fat in it, good or bad. So i honestly think that sabotages my diet more than anything. I could finish a carton in no time. So since wednesday of last week i took my mom to hide the PB and i have yet to have any yet. I know, don't deprive yourself but i think it's the only way. =/
apart from good eating, the only thing i enjoy that isn't the best for me is chips and salsa but i actually have not had that in a while so hey! if chips and salsa is the worst thing, it's not that bad.
Sometimes i think i go on binges, sadly. I'll just be so hungry sometimes or actually not even hungry and ill eat huge amounts. This doesn't happen often, not every week but sometimes i'll just eat a shitload and then feel sick. I need to have stronger control. I can get the so strict, super healthy for days and days then i'll just go off the wagon a random night. But it could be worse. For the most part i'm in good shape, diet wise.

FITNESS:
my favorite part. =P I generally work out anywhere from 3-6 days a week. I usually do at least 2 days of running where i run a 5 mile routine on a public park. Sometimes i run 3-5 times a week depending on the weather. I can run a 5 miles in 55 minutes, so that's about an 11 minute mile. I take a couple 1-2 minute walking breaks throughout this run but i mostly stay steady. Running gives me the most satisfaction in feeling like i really worked up a sweat. Other days I will go to the local rec center or my old high school and run/elliptical/bike for at least 45 minutes. I tend to do 1-2 days of strength training. I used to do it a lot more but i felt i was getting to bulky and my arms just look large to me. So i lowered my weight, i use a 5-7 lb free weights now as opposed to 10-12. I will sometimes do home dvds that i find really give me a good workout when the weather permits me. So generally i'm pretty good with my fitness levels. Occasionally i'll go on walks on my work breaks or go rollerblading when i have free time. Cardio is really my main concern but i don't skimp on weights. Muscle= higher metabolism, where mind is inexistant so i need that. haha.

So all in all, you'd say i was a pretty active healthy girl. I'm about 130 pounds right now maybe less maybe more. I don't weigh myself. My clothes fit a certain way and i know. I see what i look like in pictures in the mirror and how i feel physically. Obviously if i was 150 and say but hey im healthy i feel good, that wouldn't be correct. For the most part i feel really good and my moods are always great when i eat right and exercise. I'd just like to drop 10-15 pounds which i know seems drastic but this muscle on my needs to easy does it. I feel like a body builder. I want to be ripped but not bulky.

So enough blabbing cause i'll go forever. Hey it's my first entry so let me be, I have a lot to say.

I can't wait to go buy the Rec center membership this week (if i can afford it) and start going there again, i feel really good after hitting up the gym. Plus, i see a whole bunch of people from high school, college and it makes me happy.

Today i have work 9-530 and class 6-9 so i doubt i will be getting in any exercise today.  BOOOOOO. I know. So i'll have to just park far away from class tonight.
Last night i went on an hour walk with my boyfriend around his neighborhood, it was nice plus i got him out for some exercise which i can never get him to do with me, ha.

Back to work, this entry has taken me so long to write between all the incoming calls we are getting today.

So far today i've eaten:
Fruit/yogurt and a coffee. but it's only 1130 so sue me.
lunch is a smart ones meal some chicken/vegetable deal & a luna bar.
and i'm not sure about dinner yet.

have a good day, bye bye